LHP: My Story

That's neat that you've been working on your book for some time. I don't think it's an odd combination of occult stories and children's book I think people write in different genres quite often. I was working on a social media novella and then I low-key wouldn't mind working on erotic stories. For children's book will it be occult themed as well but, in a fictional setting? Are you going with a publisher or doing self-publish route? I'm thinking about self-publishing but, I'll see when I finish the novella. I apologize if I seem intrusive on asking about your work, I don't meet a lot of writers. :)

Clairtangency is receiving information through physical objects. I knew that was a thing but, I wasn't sure on how it worked as I've always was attracted to clairvoyance. As far as the Draconian current, yes it had felt like my mind was constantly spinning from conflicting emotions and ideas non-stop in an obsessive manner. I think what stopped it was recognizing that it's part of the path and instead of fighting it I should embrace change and try to stay in the present moment.

I have looked into Qabbalah a little bit and I think Lilith is the one that initiates the start of it. I did see a black sun or an eclipse in one my dreams so it could relate to that.

Have you ever used your own energy as an offering to Lilith? I have thought about giving away some of my energy to Sekhmet as I don't think she really wants me to use my blood.

Hi Ruby,

Thanks for asking about my writings. I am flattered you asked. As for the children’s book, it will not contain anything occult. I would say it is silly science fiction and would be targeted toward kids grades 3 - 6. But it will be a while before I get back to it because of the charisma book on which I am working now.

My negotiation book will be published by a small publisher in Chicago. The owner is a professional acquaintance of mine who has been urging me to write a book for many years. But she has written 5 best selling business books herself plus other fiction and nonfiction books. She has also published many books by other authors. And I am hoping she will publish my charisma book.

Thank you for the explanation of Clairtangency. After reading what you wrote about it,I believe you are correct. I do receive information through physical objects. Now that you have made me aware of this, I will consciously work at it.

As for Lilith initiating the start of the Qabbalah, you could very well be correct. I know she is intimately involved with it. I hope you have better luck grasping the Qabbalah than I did. if I put my mind to it, I am sure I could grasp it but I just have not had the interest to invest the time to do it.

I don’t know how to answer your question about giving my energy to Lilith as an offering. I have not consciously done so but perhaps I have done so without knowing it. Please tell me how one would give energy to a deity. It def interests me.

I have offered her my blood, cum, oils, flowers, incense, and other things. I have offered her my time by learning about her and thinking / meditating about her. But if there is a way of offering her something as personal as my energy, I definitely want to learn how to do it.

Hi LPD,

How've been? I hope you're doing well in your magickal path. I haven't been on here for a while due to me hyper focusing on writing the novella (halfway done) and other things that needed my attention in my personal life. How is your book coming along?

I haven't explored the Qabalah but, I've been trying to interpret my dreams and the in-between states when I see signs and images...I wonder if it's the astral world. I did see the goddess Sekhmet, dragons, serpents (one time a cobra), eagles, rainbow swirls, flames, eyes, lions, faces, beings with feathered wings, kittens, Baphomet (I couldn't see him fully but, I could see his figure in shadows), different sceneries and the goddess Isis herself.

I'm not sure how to explain everything but, it felt like I was dead but, still alive traveling in the odd world flying and it was very beautiful. I didn't want to leave and felt bliss. The other thing is that I had seen (I assume another form of myself or a guide?) the red dragon with twisted horns looking at me. It was the same one I've seen when I had sleep paralysis weeks ago when my skin was covered in scales of a garnet color roaring at something inside my house. I remember feeling anger and fighting back before the dream was over.

To make this short, I have no idea what's going on with me lately and doesn't make sense. I know the Draconian path is chaotic as well as order but, I see more Egyptian symbolism and deities.

As far as giving my energy to Sekhmet, I can't explain it but, it's like I feel 'something' leaving from my chest (heart chakra) or my solar plexus chakra. It's stuck energy or extra energy that's not necessary. I have set up a new altar for her and going to buy an altar bowl that's gold. I have the cauldron but, I am looking for more correspondences for her. I might look into Isis as well, or Horus they seem connected.

Have you done anymore reading and practicing of Draconian magick?

I actually found my witch name: Ruby flames and been working with fire dragon energies as well as connecting my Inner Divine. I've also been using a lot of Dragon's blood incense and oil (to dress my candles) while performing magick.

I haven't been working with any deities anymore just fire energy and it's been going pretty well. Last night, when I was (seeing) if I was talking or connecting to dragon energy the red candle that I was using (I had read on another site it can be used as an offering for dragons) the flames rose up and became the strongest out of my candles and blew out fully towards the end.

I think this is a good sign and path for me as a LHP eclectic fire witch (or draconic witch?)

Hi Ruby,

I am happy you found your witch name 😊. I can imagine how happy that makes you feel. Draconian Magick appears to be an excellent fit for you.

As for me, I have started reading again at ascendingflame.com but I need to do a lot more reading to refresh myself. But I like the material there so that won’t be a burden.

I am glad you mentioned dragons blood oil. I love that fragrance. My office always is scented with it. But your mentioning of it got me to thinking; could my love of dragons blood be an indicator of my calling to the Draconian current? 🧐🤔🤨 I will need to give that some thought.

Was there anything in particular you read at the site that struck you deeply??

This is the site that I had gotten my information from:

www.santuariolunar.com

Learn what Dragon Magick is and also a prayer to dragons. Dragons can empower you and create changes in your life. Be ready!

Working with dragon energies without dieties on my own path. The author mentions elementals (which works for me) also, how they love the red candle for offerings. I use red candles all the time for spellwork since they associated with the color of fire (along with orange, yellow, black and white) and adding dragon decor to altar space is something they enjoy.

They also don't follow lunar cycles.

The most important thing the author says is that it's all personal experiences and there's no 'rules' so to speak---which is good for an eceletic such as myself.

He does mention working with draconian energies or spirits is that they are much denser than other entities and like The Temple Of Ascending Flame they will tranform the practioner's life that can be difficult at first but, rewarding afterwards.

For me, I had gotten the signs via medition and connected with my Inner Divine that my powers seems to be enhanced. I did see her in a meditation session except I was her looking at me through a golden mirror telling me all the names that I go by was in her. It was straight-forward but, cryptic at the same time.

I've been making spells for myself on the whim using poetry and then sometimes 'wish' spells.

I still need to find more fire crystals...The only one I have so far is a dark amber rock that's dense and regulate my emotions. However, I feel like an intense and vibrant color would do the trick.

Regarding the dragon's blood oil: It may be a possibility. Do you ever meditate with Dragon's Blood oil or incense? I sometimes annoint myself and tonight I've washed up with the oil (mixing it with water) and the smell was relaxing, powerful, ancient and made me feel grounded.

Hey LPD,

That's a strange occurrence with the rumbling in your passenger area. Maybe it's was the energy from the occult topic? I don't know, and I would be scared too! I've seen articles online years ago with energies interacting with technology. I don't know about the topic, just remember seeing it here and there.

How did your ritual with Lilith go last night? Did you figure out the connection?

I under your perspective on recarnation and respect it. I just personally find the ideal of recarnation comforting because, it's not a 'dead end' so to speak. I would be able to keep learning all that I can about life and watch what happens to the world out of curiosity. However, I feel that death isn't the end just a cycle of life followed by rebirth and in the end I just want peace after I lived my life.

That's really interesting that she grew plants for magickal purposes. Yeah, urban areas can be restrictive for that sort of activities if someone wants to expand to larger plants or even plants that grow in a certain environment. I love getting high it takes the stress levels down for me allowing me to focus better when work on something. I used to be the 'anti-weed' person growing up. I thought it was for losers (propaganda in JROTC) until I met my husband who told me the truth.

Yes, the laws in some states because of anti-weed propaganda will criminalize people for growing a certain amount giving people an insane amount of time being thrown into the slammer.

That woman who gotten angry at you for enjoying sex must had been projecting something. Sex IS natural not only for humans but, a lot of species throughout the world. I say this as asexual especially when some anti-sex or anti-bdsm person starts bloviating the 'sins' of sex. She probably mad because, she doesn't any. Yes, that seemed like a typical Karen screeching about other people's personal freedoms, as always.

Regarding the sex plush:

I have this *kink* for fictional characters where I imagine having sex with them in a completely fictional world inside my head. When I fantasize this world, I think of myself as a character in third person view. It's not fictional in a live-action sense but, hentai (a.k.a anime porn). My fixation with hentai is so strong that I've bought an adult plush (it's a sex doll) that's fully customizable. One of the strongest fetishes, with this guy:

As embarrassing at it is: this guy--a straight up Faustian demon from Black Butler is my fictional crush/lover I had for years. It's been this way for years, and ever since I was a kid I had crushes on fictional men than real ones with a lot of...Spicy fantasies.

I hope you don't find me crazy like that man from Japan, marrying a hologram...Or someone doing something odd like trying to have 'fictional character rights' that some chronically online people seem to have.

It's purely fantasy and people having a kink for hentai aesthetics and/or anime is common on a lot of porn sites.

Asexual and kinky is one of those gray areas of the sexuality. There are some people who simply cannot get aroused, have no interest or are sex-repulsed. It's a very small number and, I feel that's why there isn't too much visibility. The example I had mentioned are more common. Then there's people like me (gray asexual and demisexuals). The demi-sexuals are those who generally don't feel sexual attraction for people until they get to know them. Whereas my husband and I just aren't into performing the act yet, we have no problem kinky acts such as: bondage, spanking, verbal humiliations, sissification, bimbofication, domestic servitude in fetish clothing (latex, satin, pearls) and the like.

I don't get squeamish during a sex scene, I just watch it like it's normal thing. I had tried to get down and dirty for sex with my ex and I just couldn't get into. Hence before the breakup the relationship was open because, I couldn't stand seeing him suffer for the lack of sex. We did relate on an emotional level (the romance was dying too) but, not sexual. Also, I was NOT about to try to have sex in a house full of people of my ex's fathers, uncles and sisters.

That's not sexy, it's weird.

Even talking about my asexuality makes me annoyed because, there always have to be those people who take it too far making it their ENTIRE personality, more so online. The reality is, most people that are asexual are not obsessive with the title, they have other things to worry about. Not the weird anti-sex or anti-human chronically online folks.

This is the site:

Big Sexy Plush

I think it honestly comes down to my 'doll' fetish because, some anime characters do have unusual features that resembles dolls. That's why I just I'm gray asexual or *just* kinky because, I feel that my sexuality isn't that important. I just want to feel good and have a good time but, I don't want to feel forced to do something that I don't enjoy. Nor do I want to play games with other people knowing how I am.

There used to be a kinky but asexual group on FetLife discussing this. I find sexuality to be expressive and artistic too. I'm not going to go bananas when a pretty lady is walking around naked with a pearl body suit on an adult website or at fetish meetup. I think it's attractive highlighting the different parts of the human body in a 'leave room for the imagination' way.

That's the best way I can explain it. It's a hairy labyrinth to which I just I stopped caring. I have too many fetishes more than sex it's funny at times.

I understand about the smaller communities being hostile towards anything 'different' than what's locally agreed. I stayed in a small town before growing up and some people are so nasty towards anyone that thinks differently, outside of their group.

By the way, here's the serpentine crystal:

Hi Ruby,

My long day has ended and I am relaxing with a glass of sweet, cheap red wine. That’s right, I said cheap as in Carlo Rossi Sweet Red. I buy it in the “value size.” I like it. What can I say? 🤷🤷 It’s not the only wine I drink, but it is my ”go to” when I am relaxing at home.

Ok. Your question about last night: “How did your ritual with Lilith go last night? Did you figure out the connection“? The ritual went well. At least I think it went well. I wrote Lilith a Letter of Intent requesting a succubus. I listed out the characteristics, qualities, and behaviors I am seeking in a succubus. I then signed it with blood and semen. And then burned it with the flames from a black candle and red candle I had been burning while writing the letter. I have written and signed pacts (using blood and semen) with Lilith but have never created a Letter of Intent. The idea came to me from the video I mentioned last night which had the strange rumbling noise that my car stereo picked up. And actually, I believe Lilith led me to this particular video. I had been thinking about conjuring a succubus for a couple of weeks so I believe Lilith led me to that video and several others to prompt me to make the request.

This past summer, I paid the witches here at Satania to conjure a succubus for me for one night. It was an interesting night to be sure. I had even taken Viagra to make sure I would derive as much pleasure for as long as possible from the experience. The viagra and the Succubus created a raging hard-on which went through the night and into the next day. The viagra should have worn off in 4 hours but the combination of it and the Succubus kept me wildly horny for a good part of the following day. And I loved every second of it!!

Although it has taken me a long time to act upon my desire to have a succubus companion permanently, I finally pulled the trigger last night. But I have no evidence of the presence of a succubus - yet.

So perhaps my interest in a succubus is not too unlike your interest in an anime character. Are you aware of Tulpa’s? It strikes me that your long time anime crush may now be a Tulpa. Just a thought.

I checked out the plush dolls at the link you sent. To my shame, that II checked out the plush dolls at the link you sent. To my shame, I had never seen those before. I would love to know which one you and and your hubby selected but understand if you prefer to keep that private.

Regarding getting high: the only times I have done so is when having sex. It makes me hornier. But I have this fetish where I get turned on by a lady who is stoned. I am not sure why but I find stoned women very sexy. And I don’t mean stoned in the bedroom but outside the bedroom too.

I am having some strange issues with this text editor now so I will send and start a second message.

Regarding asexuals and demisexuals you wrote: “Then there's people like me (gray asexual and demisexuals). The demi-sexuals are those who generally don't feel sexual attraction for people until they get to know them. Whereas my husband and I just aren't into performing the act yet, we have no problem kinky acts such as: bondage, spanking, verbal humiliations, sissification, bimbofication, domestic servitude in fetish clothing (latex, satin, pearls) and the like.”

I generally feel a far stronger sexual attraction to a lady after I have gotten to know her rather than just initially, regardless of how sexy she strikes me. The mind is the sexiest part of the body so I need to get my mind to follow the physical attraction. And sometimes it just does not happen.

As for the fetishes you mentioned, I am good with all of them except for sissification. I got acquainted with a lady from Cleveland who was into bimbofication big time. But the opportunity never materialized for us to connect in-person. However, we did talk by phone on numerous occasions. I hope there will be a point in the future when we can talk by phone. There are some things I do not want to commit to writing but would tell you by phone.

Thank you for the photo of the serpentine crystal. I see it is heart shaped with what appears to be the form of a serpent on it. What is the actual crystal?

Getting back to your home; as I recall it is in a suburban area. Will you or have you purchased a farm to pursue your horticultural interests?

When you spoke of the online store you had, you mentioned selling jewelry and chokers. Are the chokers you sold collars? I had collared my affair partner. We even performed a ceremony to commentate the occasion. I find chokers and collars very sexy. I just wish I had someone to collar.

Another item my partner and I both liked were ankle bracelets. They are so sexy and feminine. She wore ankle bracelets for me because she knew I found them sexy and as an outward sign of submission, just like the collar. Did you sell ankle bracelets too?

There are several other items I want to follow-up with you on but can’t think of them at the moment. When I do, I will let you know.

I hope you have something good brewing in your big black witches cauldron for dinner tonight 😊