My life began as a Roman Catholic and I remained a luke-warm one for many years. The mystery of the rituals always intrigued me. But throughout my life, there was always a hunger for the occult, especially anything to do with communicating with spirits. My Catholic education provided me a background in the Latin language which has been very helpful in my study of spirits and "Diabolism," "Devilism" Satanism. It also launched my interest in Renaissance magic and alchemy.
About eleven years ago, I became interested in vampires and was bound to a female vampire spirit by the name of Karina, by a "Blood Witch" in Poland. Unfortunately, she has been lost to me š„ (more about that below). I liked her very much and would love to have her return. A friend of mine who is a Witch told me that Karina is terrified of Lilith and has probably run away to avoid Lilith. But it was the experience with Karina that truly opened me up to practicing the LHP. I read everything I could get my hands on about everything-occult. I listened to every video I could find (and I found a lot of them). I then became obsessed with Lilith (I use the word obsessed intentionally) and had experienced possession on several occasions. My experiences with Lilith are too many to recount and some of those experiences were not pleasant but I accept that as "coming with the territory." Bu full disclosure: I am guilty of doing many things that have both disappointed and angered her.
Through my relationship with Lilith, my path has become more "sinister" and more serious. Lilith has led me to levels in my beliefs and workings that I could have never conceived of in the past. I can honestly say that my relationship with Lilith has changed my life and I don't mean just my spiritual life.
It was Lilith who led to me to E.A. Koetting and his workings and colleagues. I have been a member at BALG.com for may years now. And it was through E.A. that I was led to the works of Asenath Mason and it was those works that have assisted me in my relationship with Lilith.
I have also taken a deep-dive into Luciferianism through the works of Michael W. Ford.
Most recently, I have become deeply interested in practicing "Enochian" magic from where I take my current screen name, Madimi's Prom Date.
Like most of the people who have posted here, I am a solitary practitioner. But that is not by choice. I have just not found a group / Coven with whom I feel truly comfortable. However, I am pleased to see that I am getting more comfortable here at Satania. And I certainly hope Satania can be my new spiritual home.
I keep seeing E. A Koettings work throughout the LHP I was thinking about giving his books a try. I mostly read Michael W Ford's work because (I may be the minority) I still am secular but, I do think there might be more than a mundane world. I'm solitary as well, and an eclectic witch where I think fire is my main source of power along with the moon (not even too sure if Vampyre path is right as I've been seeing snakes and dragons).
Either way, it's good to meet other people on here and like you, I grew up in an RHP religous home...except it was baptist fundamentalists (borderline extremists).